I can’t wait. I just have to write it now. I don’t even want to wait until tomorrow when the sun shines perfectly bright so I can take better pictures. I’m too worried I will forget what I have in mind. I’m just too excited and too “Is this even real?” kind of feeling.

Okay let me just start.

January 2024 wasn’t nice to me. You have no idea how hard it was. I wrote a little about that here on this blog but it was still nothing compared to what I truly felt. I lost my spark. Getting out of bed was a challenge. At one point, I even questioned God…

After almost a month filled with a sea of negative emotions, I came across a post by someone on TikTok. The girl basically only put her favorite pictures and I wasn’t really paying attention until I saw her bracelet… She tagged an Instagram account (for now I’m gatekeeping this but ladies please don’t be mad, you’ll find your way!) and in a second I went to search it. The account sells custom-made bracelets from crystals, gemstones, and beads. It was weird, you know. I’m never interested in anything jewelry-related. I own nothing and don’t even wear my wedding ring. But this one magically got me.

Now before I continue. Do you know people keep something because they believe it protects them, or will make their dreams come true? I’m not saying like idolatry or penyembahan berhala! It simply gives them a sense of strength, something that becomes a reminder of a specific goal or someone they love. For example, my friend will bring Al Qur’an whenever he travels far as it makes him feel safe. My dad has my mom picture in his wallet to cure his longing (mom passed away in 2017). When I was in school I fancied Teddy Sheringham, a Manchester United player, and to feel close to him, my backpack charm was a Teddy bear! (I managed to really meet him in person by the way, playing football with him and being hugged!) So I guess what happened when I was checking out the custom-made bracelets was… Knowing that each crystal and gemstone symbolizes something, I wanted to have one that could jog me to have the courage to pass the hard times.

Long story short, I contacted the crafter. She asked me things in detail. From date, place, time of birth to wrist size to things I wanted to tell and even my recent picture. Honestly I was nervous! I called my dad because I didn’t know the time I was born. I was even worried I measured my wrist wrong! Ahaha. And finally, after waiting for more than 2 weeks, my first bracelet is here! It arrived a couple of hours ago!

Fast forward, I opened the brown envelope. My name is written on the tag. It is a lovely package, my photo doesn’t do it justice. There is the certificate of authenticity, how to cleanse my crystals and gemstones (I’ve got aventurine, clear quartz, rhadonite, and turquoise), in addition, cards that tell me what my crystals and gemstones mean. A hand-drawn picture of my bracelet, a hand-written letter, and of course the bracelet itself are in the package. Everything is personalized. Everything screams “me”.

And whoever made my bracelet is a witch… I’m pretty sure of it.

First, her choice of crystals and gemstones… I can’t even! It’s crazy how they totally mean everything I want for myself! I almost cried. Second, beads she chose to accompany the crystals and gemstones are in purple and green (the aventurine is also green)! My favorite colors! How did she even know? And third, the letter! The letter speaks to me! The letter tells me to make wise decisions with clarity, integrity, and compassion so that everyone ultimately benefits. INSANE. I mentioned nothing about making decisions to her, but indeed it’s something I’ve been struggling with since that damn January until now! This time, I lost it. I cried. I still have goosebumps reading it.

I know my bracelet isn’t the answer to my problems. God is. But to receive something specially crafted for me, a beautiful creation that fits perfectly around my wrist, designed in a simple and effortless style (just like what I expected!), how thoughts were put into making it, I instantly felt better.

My bracelet is called a companion bracelet. I believe it’s because whenever I wear and look at it, I won’t feel lonely; it’s a physical reminder of my journey in life, so I can honor my past and trust my future.